Sunday, December 5, 2010

Five Years Ago....Tomorrow.....

Five years ago today, we set out very early for the hospital.  I was filled with fear and trepidation.  And hope-always hope. 

I was two weeks away from my due date, but the doctors wanted an early induction.  Doctors I had never met would monitor my labor and eventually deliver my baby.  But that comes later. 

Five years ago today, I was induced.

We waited….and waited….and waited some more.  The hospital was prepared for a quick delivery, I’m sure.  After all, this was my 6th labor and delivery.  But the time stretched on  and we waited.

My mind bounced from excitement to pure fear to dread of what would come, but I think most of those feelings are normal for any birth.  However, this birth would be different. 

I tried desperately to hang on to the verses the Holy Spirit had led me to in the previous months.  With Deuteronomy 9:3, He assured me that he was going ahead of me, consuming the enemy and clearing the path like a raging fire. (paraphrased) (actual verse: But be assured today that the LORD your God is the one who goes across ahead of you like a devouring fire…)

With Isaiah 43:18-19, He spoke to me about the past and how this time would be different. He was doing a new thing. (paraphrased) (actual verses: Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past.  See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.)

Those verses tumbled through my stream of consciousness throughout that day and into that night as I labored (with a healthy dose of medication via epidural, of course).  That epidural did nothing to numb the pain and fear in my heart, though.

Friends came, family paced, and church members visited and prayed.

And we waited for what was to come.

We tried to prepare ourselves for the road ahead, but how?  It was unknown, even though we had traveled it before.  We had hope, so we hoped for the best while expecting the worst.  Doctors had given little hope, but that was okay.  We had enough hope to cover them, too.

Time continued to pass and we soon realized that this would not be the day.  Long labors are the norm for me-always have been.  So, tomorrow then.  Tomorrow would be the day.  Maybe….

Five years ago I waited for what would come tomorrow.

Five years ago I had no idea what God had planned.

Five years ago I waited for the path to be revealed.

Five years ago…..tomorrow…..

(to be continued)

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